I have found that it is very easy to ask God for something in prayer. I mean, really, there's nothing to it! "God, I'd really like to have this farm. I think it would be good for our family and would help us to not be so distracted from you." So then I would typically just sit and wait for God to deliver. I mean, I DID ask, right? So naturally His answer should be YES!
This time, with so much on the line (having two mortgages, needing to sell a house in a horrible market, having children with such strong roots that Ben has even given up his dream of being a fireman so he can live in Momma and Daddy's house "all of my life")- I threw in a security clause... "But God, if this is absolutely NOT a good idea, and NOT from You, don't just shut doors. Make it IMPOSSIBLE for us to get the farm, even if there were little ways that we could find to weasel around your will".
So this past Friday we were told that there are 3 offers on the farm and we had to come up with our "highest and best" offer to give the sellers. After much crunching of numbers and anguish- we put in a ridiculously crazy low offer. I am sitting here waiting to hear from the agent that we didn't get it. I'm fully expecting to be turned down. It was a beautiful little place that I truly could see us so happy at, but I am so incredibly thankful that God answers prayer. There's such a peace that comes from trusting Him. I know that He can see so much more than I can, so I'm just gonna rest in Him....and start shopping for a much needed new sofa!